Family Tree

Well, my dad took off to see my grandpa this morning. He won't be back until Sunday or Monday. I was really disappointed when he left. I'm not going to see him for a week or more because by the time he gets back I'll be off at school. He didn't even say anything to me about school or moving out. My uncle who was with us also wished me good luck in school, but own father didn't even mention it. I was really hurt.

I understand that he has a lot on his mind. His father might die. But it really hurts that he couldn't acknowledge the fact that I was going off to college. I don't understand.

I know that he really does love me, but I just don't get it sometimes.

However, I did get to spend some time with my other family which was a lot of fun and comforting as always. I love them all a lot.

Subterranean Homesick Blues

Not much has happened the last few days. Just a lot of getting ready for school. But there are somethings that standout.

Monday: Shopping. Went to the Factoria Nordstrom Rack where I bought a merino wool sweater that is uber-cool and a Lucky Brand fur-lined corduroy coat. Later that day I went to Southcenter where I got a cool pair of vintage style Reeboks and a cool pair of Adidas.

Tuesday: STAR WARS DVD! It's totally awesome and I love. I also saw an advanced screening of "Shaun of the Dead" for free. It's also totally awesome and I love it too. It's a hilarious British rom-zom-com (romantic zombie comedy).

Wednesday: I did the Puyallup. It was pretty cool. I saw an awesome performance by a Beatles tribute band. They rocked. I also saw Maroon 5. It was pretty good. But the highlight of my day is still the tribute band. Unfortunately I also found out that my grandfather (dad's side) has a 40% chance of living.

My grandfather has a really bad case of pneumonia and a secondary stomach illness. I don't really know how to feel about it. This grandfather has never been one of my favorite family members. Its difficult for me to sort through my feelings about the situation. I am disappointed however because my dad is flying out to Hawaii to see my grandfather later today. Which means that my last night at home, the night I wanted to spend with my whole family and especially my dad, he won't be here. It sucks. I love my dad I want him to be here when I leave, but there isn't much I can do about it.

I'm going to miss my dad a lot after I move out. I miss my dad a lot now, even though I'm still living here. Our schedules just don't match up very often and its going to be even harder once I start college. I'm just going to have to put forth the effort to make sure that my schedule matches up with his sometimes.