I've Got Me Some Of Those Saint James Infirmary Blues
Best day at Bumbershoot ever! I watched comedians all day long. It was awesome. And after the shows I got to meet Nick Swardson, Todd Barry, and Craig Robinson. And I got their signatures. It was amazing. Nick Swardson hugged me. And then Ruslan and I saw him later and he was like "I hugged these two guys!" and pointed at us.
It was great. All of it.
I hate the way I act towards her sometimes. She doesn't deserve it. We used to playfully make fun of each other, essentially it was how we flirted with each other. We still kind of do it. But recently I've gotten a lot meaner towards her. I tell myself that she's OK with it and that she knows what I'm doing. And I do believe that a little part of her does. But I think that most of her is actually a little hurt by it. I thought about it. I realize why I'm doing what I'm doing. I'm afraid that if it stops, it means that things are over between us. And that scares me.
The games and indecisions need to end. I need to talk to her. And in the time-being, I need to not be so damn mean to her.
Why does the road leading to relationships have to be so damn frustrating?
High Fidelity is quite possibly one of the best movies ever. It makes my top five list with a bullet. It is also the movie that introduced me to John Cusack and what an awesome actor he is.
This movie makes me want to own a record store and be broken hearted.
I could care less if she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore. I had been thinking exactly that even before I saw her today. For approximately the last year she has caused more trouble for me than she is worth.
I don't need her. I already have six friends who I value way more than her.
I'm going crazy. I gotta get away from my house, away from my family. Hang out with friends.
Anything as long as it isn't here.
